There is more than Art . . .

Dear Glammour Bunnies,

It seems that I have joined the many millions of Bloggers who have a Blog but don't update it as much as they'd like to. I am not dogging any Blogger in anyway, just stating what I have heard and read about from other blogs. It is safe to say that many things can hinder one from posting a new post, Life as they say intervenes . . . or is it spelt entervenes . . . no no I'm pretty sure its the first way . . . hmm *pauses silently*

Anyways, my life as many others has its ups and downs. Very rollercoaster-like. I would love to go into detail, which definetly would make a good read for many . . . but alas I have been told by some friends, "Keep it business like for you Art Blog." How could I possibly keep it all inside, eventually I would come to typing out my emotions and telling tales of my life. I wanna say maybe its the artist in me, not really caring what others think and spilling my guts out . . . or perhaps its the attention seeking human in me, yearning for some people to pay attention to me and tell me, "Its okay, I know how you feel."

I have one specal Guy in my life right now that understands me, and does a very good job with making everything bad go away, it really does just seem to vanish. The time that I spend with him is very special and I guess precious, since a few days will go by with me not seeing him due to his work schedule. I get a bit sad knowing that our time together is limited and I will have to return home, which at times is never, ever really happy. That is a very heartbreaking truth to my families situation, nobody is going to be trully, happy. I wish, hope, pray and beat my bains out that we would be the same family as it were when I was a kid. We are all grown ups now, I'm 23 a,d my sis is 25. Our family has grown apart, ugly, grudges have taken the place of Love, and one to many people have been taken for granted, some are set in their old habits, and a some are trying to start a new but seem to never get an inch out in their new lives for others are holding them back from the happiness they only catch a glimpse of, be it a phonecall, or a visit that lasts only two or three hours.

I am happy to say that I have a grown abit in the past year. Focusing on my Pin-up art career, I've have had set backs and times of weakness that really make it seem that I am never going to get anywhere. My father fills me with words of encouragement and seems to lift my spirits very high and sometimes makeing them permanent everytime. "Focus on your Art, your career. You set your goals and dont't let anything get you down, you have to learn to push yourself and go on no matter what happens. Don't let anything thats happening here (at home) take that away from you."

Three people, close to me I would like to thank here and now, they remind me to not let things bother me their encouragement has been very crucial in many ways in my life as of this year, or towards the end of this year.

My boyfriend, for giving me some insight on my art, giving me great ideas and spotting out minor errors here and there to better my work. He is a beautiful guy- inside and out. 

My Father, Thanks for being a great Father and being there for me more in 2011 than ever before, it really does make up for alot of lost time, we have more than enough time to continue our great relationship.

and last but not least, my Beautiful, gorgeous, ever so strong Mother. You were my first muse and model for my art, and you have taught me many valueble things, as well as giving me Life and passing on your Artistic abilities to me and your "Don't care what others think-Headstrong" attitude that I do catch glimpses of when I least expect it.

That is a pretty brief but very informative piece, it says alot without going into vivid-sad details. I always feel better after expressing these feelings. It is nice to write them out and sort of spin them off into cyber space.

Thank you Glammour Bunnies for staying put and tuned, Art will be the focus of my next posts, I promise.
-Xavier