A letter to you ...

... from a healing heart,

So Im writing this to you. You text and email me as if it is okay, sure on your end, you may feel that these bridges you've destroyed are mended. They are far from where you thought you left them.

I keep myself from texting you, or contacting you in anyway. I know it will only leave me broken hearted again. How many times in the past would I text you and never get a reply? The day you ignored me in public still plays in my mind, it is a reminder of who you really are. So was the last day/night I saw you. I was reminded of who you are. I was dissapointed the moment I stepped into your car. You were different, but still the same in many ways. You changed the way you dressed, again. You've changed your diet, again. You changed your views on life again. Had another so called "awakening."

Same story, different day. Ive seen this person many different times before. Under different guises, you've not settled into the shoes of who you are, the person I fell in love with. He's gone, a memory. A lovely memory that I reflect on with love and happiness. I smile and smirk, than Im sad for it is gone. That being said, I am no longer in the position to know what you are doing with your life. If I wanted to know I would've been the one to text, email . . . wave at you.

-Xavier

Evangeline, The Oyster Girl

Just sharing two detail shots of a pinup portrait I'm doing of Kitty West, who was a burlesque dancer in New Orleans.

"Behind the Burly-Q" Book!!

Hey folks,

Just thought Id share the book trailer for "Behind the Burly-Q." A fabulous book version of the documentary. Filled with photographs, interviews and the stories of the women themselves, sure to be a treasure for any Burlesque fan or performer! Due out later this year!

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=lIZE-qGio9c&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DlIZE-qGio9c 

-Xavier

Beefcake!

Just showing a new piece I did early this morning. Its a watercolor painting of a model named Joe Napolie from the 1950s. I used a photo of him from a Vintage Beefcake magazine I bought.
Below are a couple of shots, just before and after. The pics maybe bad due to my camera phone ... but its better than nothing! Haha

-Xavier

Pushing my boundaries...

With the new year brings lots of new things. We set new goals to achieve and resolutions to better ourselves for our new year.

I've decided that it is time I push myself and my boundaries regarding my art. Over the years I've collected reasons as to why I paint beautiful women. Those reasons have grown and developed into many different aspects that define myself as an artist and who I am as human being.

I want to answer this and explain myself but I just can never find the right moment to do so. I'm currently posting blogs via my cell phone. So its kind of annoying when you want to type out a long tale about who you really are as an artist.
I want to go into detail about why I'm so interested in painting pretty women. How it all began... how I'm growing and seeing new things about myself I never knew were there before. How Ive opened my eyes to my work.

My laptop is dead. I'd like to sit with it and type away...
-Xavier

Business of Pleasure

Its a pleasure doing this business that I do. . . Some sketches for upcoming work for a future interview.
BOP BOP BOP!!
-Xavier

Simply put, Love.

I had a dream, felt real as ever. It was about my ex. We were in a new world, to me everything was different but he seemed to know everything in and out about this dream world. I was lost. Happy, warm and scared. We were floating at night, over a dark lake. Laughing, enjoying one another but yet it was awkward for I knew it was a dream.  We were mice running from some sort of hideous goblin, seeking shelter in an antique shop-where at the blink of an eye, back to our human forms, shopping in a new thrift shop on a rainy day ... "Where is he? This dream is nice but time is limited, I'm going to wake up soon..."

Looking back at it all, I'm so proud that I was able to experience Love. We had a love for one another, despite the issues. We just couldnt make it work anymore. It was a beautiful thing. A wonderful experience and it makes me envious of the time I spent with him. I now enjoy the memories when they surface. I smile, laugh and then drop it ...

We learn from our mistakes. Which of course I can see and I acknowledge all my rights and wrongs through out our relationship.

After a breakup, one's eyes open and they see the world alittle bit differently. They see themselves differently, I can see that I have grown from this experience. Its amazing. I see things in a new way.

I look forward to being able to share love again with someone in the future.

-Xavier